A couple of months ago, I was bored waiting ... just waiting for things to happen. I was pacing in circles (with Tara behind me and we were just driving KQ to the walls) in our bedroom. A year ago, I was waiting too ... just patiently waiting for my Canadian citizenship papers to arrive, watching the grass grow. Just waiting ...
So this is how it feels like to be the opposite of the sedentary life I had. Things happening all at the same time. I start out my days as early as six in the morning and running around like crazy with my brain at full speed trying to keep everything organized. Do you know how hard that is ... to keep my scattered brain organized. It's easier to keep everybodyelse on track but my brain!!! When we come home at the end of the day, we go straight to the kicthen for dinner and then, it's downtime in front of the tv. Before I know it, I'm fast asleep snoring and farting away in dreamland. It's the exact opposite of the kind of life I have lived for the longest time. I feel like I'm back to school when I wake up early and doze off by 10 or 11 at night. I can't even stay up till 1 am nowadays.
Life coming in full circle ... signs of getting old or what! At this age, I don't even know why I'm doing all these things ... why I do what I'm doing ... I'm on a roll. It's like a second wind.
You know how ordinary people are when they go to work Mondays through Fridays and relax on week-ends and Sundays being family day or just quiet time at home. That's like exactly what I have become right now. Hey, I even go to church on Sundays now.
I have so many things to do. Ten or eleven days to go to meet my deadline. Menu, food tests, bar tests, flyers, ads, signages, logos, wall-painting, kitchen set-up, repairs, touch-ups, uniforms, tables & chairs, umbrellas, caps, hiring & selection process, systems & procedures, orientations & training, purchases, merchandise selection, design, business licenses & permits, genset, POS cash registers, contracts, trademarks & IPO rights, tacomio operation, Marilao construction ... AARRRGGGHHH ... Hmmm.
I was the one who set the deadline.
June 10.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Saturday, May 22, 2004
The World Passing By Through My Eyes
There's a reason why I shifted from using removable drives.
I started using them when they were still Bernoullis and Syquests from a mere 20 MB media connected on parallel and scsi ports. And of course, from 20 MB, the Bernoullis came up with 44 MB. Hard drives then were like really small. Nowadays, you can gave GIGAS as in 200 GB drives as externals. There are different types of cartridges now from memory cards, multimedia cards for cellular phones to digital cameras. And of course, there's the CD-Roms and DVD's, rewritables and a lot of formats to choose from. Speaking of multimedia, I remember immersing myself with the technology when they were just trying to get everything to work together. Transferring analog video formats to digital. It's a concept. And the technology has really developed except the prices escalated and with new development every three months or so, everything turns into junk in a year.
I am back with my zip drive except the capacity is up to 250 MB with a USB port that plugs and plays on a MAC and/or a PC. And as I have mentioned earlier, there's a reason why I shifted from using removable drives or should I say, why I stopped and abandoned using them. The dang thing is giving me headaches with the I/O error messages. And it is still so slow even if the speed has now gone up to GHz and crap. It's always faster to work off your drive C.
I know there's a better way like networking for transferring and sharing files. It used to be through the com ports either by serial or parallel and one needs a software like the Laplink. Now, its the ethernet cable or something and eaisier with a GDI. However, an old goat like me have been left behind and somehow, amidst all these changes ... it's not as easy as it was before in following the not-so-user-friendly instructions. Duh ...
Age is creeping in so slowly. I don't belong to the generation that throws remote controls on TV sets nor can't even record TV programs on a VCR. I can still send and receive text messages on my cel phone. But for the life of me, I'm having a difficult time catching up with the world nowadays. I can't even finish my websites.
All I want to do sometime is just sit back, relax and enjoy the world around me as it passes by.
I started using them when they were still Bernoullis and Syquests from a mere 20 MB media connected on parallel and scsi ports. And of course, from 20 MB, the Bernoullis came up with 44 MB. Hard drives then were like really small. Nowadays, you can gave GIGAS as in 200 GB drives as externals. There are different types of cartridges now from memory cards, multimedia cards for cellular phones to digital cameras. And of course, there's the CD-Roms and DVD's, rewritables and a lot of formats to choose from. Speaking of multimedia, I remember immersing myself with the technology when they were just trying to get everything to work together. Transferring analog video formats to digital. It's a concept. And the technology has really developed except the prices escalated and with new development every three months or so, everything turns into junk in a year.
I am back with my zip drive except the capacity is up to 250 MB with a USB port that plugs and plays on a MAC and/or a PC. And as I have mentioned earlier, there's a reason why I shifted from using removable drives or should I say, why I stopped and abandoned using them. The dang thing is giving me headaches with the I/O error messages. And it is still so slow even if the speed has now gone up to GHz and crap. It's always faster to work off your drive C.
I know there's a better way like networking for transferring and sharing files. It used to be through the com ports either by serial or parallel and one needs a software like the Laplink. Now, its the ethernet cable or something and eaisier with a GDI. However, an old goat like me have been left behind and somehow, amidst all these changes ... it's not as easy as it was before in following the not-so-user-friendly instructions. Duh ...
Age is creeping in so slowly. I don't belong to the generation that throws remote controls on TV sets nor can't even record TV programs on a VCR. I can still send and receive text messages on my cel phone. But for the life of me, I'm having a difficult time catching up with the world nowadays. I can't even finish my websites.
All I want to do sometime is just sit back, relax and enjoy the world around me as it passes by.
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
One Snap
It's ... I'm at a lost for words with this one ... It's ahmmm ... hmmm ... how can I eloquently put this? It's pathetic how fate trully is or how God plays a mean game of turning everything up and down and around ... Pathetic is not the word that describes the way I feel right now tho' ... I have no qualms about Him if He so wishes ... The situation I am in right now doesn't even bother me.
I just want to blog down my thoughts as I go through my life ...
A year ago, all that preoccupied my mind was thoughts of retiring. How I would like to spend the remaining days and enjoying my life to the fullest. Dreaming. Wishing. Planning. Taking steps to the fulfillment of the unspoken dream.
Somehow, what's happening right now doesn't seem to be leading to that. I believe it will but not in the near future. And that's what He had in mind, I suppose since what's happening right now is not anything like what I had in mind last year. He makes me smile. He fulfills me with His hope ... Everything's going to be alright in the end.
In one snap of the finger, my life turned around and completely faced the opposite direction. No retirement ... Nope, I don't think so.
I just want to blog down my thoughts as I go through my life ...
A year ago, all that preoccupied my mind was thoughts of retiring. How I would like to spend the remaining days and enjoying my life to the fullest. Dreaming. Wishing. Planning. Taking steps to the fulfillment of the unspoken dream.
Somehow, what's happening right now doesn't seem to be leading to that. I believe it will but not in the near future. And that's what He had in mind, I suppose since what's happening right now is not anything like what I had in mind last year. He makes me smile. He fulfills me with His hope ... Everything's going to be alright in the end.
In one snap of the finger, my life turned around and completely faced the opposite direction. No retirement ... Nope, I don't think so.
Life Is A Cabaret, Ol' Chum ...
Well, it's fun to blog. It has always fascinated me to come across things I've written down in the past, the rat that I am ... As I rummage through stuff, I often see pages scattered all over ... of myself. There were times when I don't even remember having written them or making me wonder why I ever wrote those lines. It's like what the hell was I thinking? Haha.
Blogging is really fun. Everything is tucked away for reference. It helps a lot ... in retrospect. And now as Blogger updated it's templates, I was so inspired to change my site. It forced me to run through everything and along the way read what I have written. For somebody who kept preaching about the meaning of life and what should be important, I am for one ... hmmm ... No wonder, not too many people listen to me as in really listen. Reality strikes, money is important to me. Had it not been, then I wouldn't have blogged so much about it. I was just trying to convince myself that it shouldn't be. Ouch! Reality bites. Stop the BS. It is important especially when one is broke.
Now that we (i.e. ME, MYSELF and I) have come to an understanding that it is, the next question is exactly how important is it? Money makes the world go round, the world go round ... that clink and clanking sound ...
Life is a cabaret, ol' chum ...
Blogging is really fun. Everything is tucked away for reference. It helps a lot ... in retrospect. And now as Blogger updated it's templates, I was so inspired to change my site. It forced me to run through everything and along the way read what I have written. For somebody who kept preaching about the meaning of life and what should be important, I am for one ... hmmm ... No wonder, not too many people listen to me as in really listen. Reality strikes, money is important to me. Had it not been, then I wouldn't have blogged so much about it. I was just trying to convince myself that it shouldn't be. Ouch! Reality bites. Stop the BS. It is important especially when one is broke.
Now that we (i.e. ME, MYSELF and I) have come to an understanding that it is, the next question is exactly how important is it? Money makes the world go round, the world go round ... that clink and clanking sound ...
Life is a cabaret, ol' chum ...
Friday, May 14, 2004
SCREAM!!!
That's what I've been wanting to do. My significant other, as always ... surfing the net informed me that blogger.com updated their services. As I peered over her shoulders, lo and behold ... my nephews updated their blogsite. Cool. One can now even put pictures. And comment box!
So, I jumped out of bed and plugged in my laptop. It's a good thing cause I haven't opened my email for days now and I really don't like anything on TV at the moment. Nash Bridges ... I never liked him before, more so now that he has aged.
It's bad ... I changed my template and clicked on the new features forgetting that I already have haloscan comment box. What's worse is that I don't even remember my haloscan account. All the comments ... GONE!
SCREAM!!!
So, I jumped out of bed and plugged in my laptop. It's a good thing cause I haven't opened my email for days now and I really don't like anything on TV at the moment. Nash Bridges ... I never liked him before, more so now that he has aged.
It's bad ... I changed my template and clicked on the new features forgetting that I already have haloscan comment box. What's worse is that I don't even remember my haloscan account. All the comments ... GONE!
SCREAM!!!
Thursday, May 06, 2004
I Suppose, I Am ...
Okay.
Okay BUT what I don't understand is that why I am in such a deep shit. I know it's all my fault. I know I am a responsible human being always trying to do the right thing. And for whatever is today was because of yesterday, for actions taken in the past ... and actions not taken, as well. Opportunities knocked and I did not open the door. Let it be ... it's just the way things are.
And the way things are right now is that I'm broke and digging myself into the bottomless pits. My horoscope ... the runes, iching and everything esoteric says otherwise. That's what I don't understand. Cross to the far shore. Supreme success. Keep on track, I am blessed ... the Superior Person. Fertility. New beginnings.
Spiritually ... yeah, I'm feeling great. I'm happy. I'm content.
Emotionally ... that too. I have never been so stable.
Physically ... well, I've never really been that fit.
Mentally ... hmmm .... Psychologically ... hmmm ... these aspects seem to be the problem since I can't quite grasp what the cosmos' plans are. That with the financial sector and as well as these economics of getting through all this crisis.
My mother as usually ... is a big help and of little help at the same time. She does make me a stronger person. Had it not been for her, I wouldn't have the drive to ever so succeed. It has always been ... just to please her. To get her approval ...
I am blessed and I thank thee for all those around me ... the support and gratitude. The karma of life ... one's destiny and blind faith that all is well even if it isn't ... really ...
Okay BUT what I don't understand is that why I am in such a deep shit. I know it's all my fault. I know I am a responsible human being always trying to do the right thing. And for whatever is today was because of yesterday, for actions taken in the past ... and actions not taken, as well. Opportunities knocked and I did not open the door. Let it be ... it's just the way things are.
And the way things are right now is that I'm broke and digging myself into the bottomless pits. My horoscope ... the runes, iching and everything esoteric says otherwise. That's what I don't understand. Cross to the far shore. Supreme success. Keep on track, I am blessed ... the Superior Person. Fertility. New beginnings.
Spiritually ... yeah, I'm feeling great. I'm happy. I'm content.
Emotionally ... that too. I have never been so stable.
Physically ... well, I've never really been that fit.
Mentally ... hmmm .... Psychologically ... hmmm ... these aspects seem to be the problem since I can't quite grasp what the cosmos' plans are. That with the financial sector and as well as these economics of getting through all this crisis.
My mother as usually ... is a big help and of little help at the same time. She does make me a stronger person. Had it not been for her, I wouldn't have the drive to ever so succeed. It has always been ... just to please her. To get her approval ...
I am blessed and I thank thee for all those around me ... the support and gratitude. The karma of life ... one's destiny and blind faith that all is well even if it isn't ... really ...