It seems to be an annual thing now, this blog of mine. Well, it doesn't necessarily mean I had nothing to blog about nor I don't have time to blog. I was for a while very, very depressed. I thought that the things that happened early this year happened to take my mind of this depressed state I have put myself in ... to move on and face what's here and now. Things that are right in front of my face. There, like snap out of it. You're depressed because you have nothing better to do that kind of thing. Get your fat-ass off the bed. You look ugly, you feel ugly and worth nothing. Yeah, I remember blogging something nasty somewhere. And here I am again.
I have no more space in my mind for issues that I can not deal with upfront and in a sanely fashion. I am beginning to lose it or grasp the big picture. It's either that or I just want the easy way out. I don't know any more. I don't care any less. I'm just tired and weary forever trying. Can somebody please lighten the load?
Wake up call! Hello ... anybody home? Earth calling Mars. Houston, we have a problem.
Liar, liar, liar. What else? What is all this name calling and where else could it possibly lead to? We all been lied to. We all lied during our lifetime. Truth hurts actually and sometimes, that is the root of why people lie. Does it make us better persons? Heck no but we all do it anyways. To spare people we love of what could possibly hurt them and the people we lie to, they hurt the most when the truth comes out. Why, geez ... I don't know.
I went to church and finally for a long span of time, attended mass. I actually attended one and a half and stayed the half part at the Blessed Sacrament. Hoping for some kind of miracle I suppose, lighten the load somehow, clear the cobwebs of my mind.
Twas, I don't know ... call it a sign ... an enlightenment of some sort. The 6pm priest's sermon was about Alzheimer's. All about forgetting and not thinking ... I guess, I did not think. I forgot. And I also now realize what matters most and what and needs to be prioritized like who is on top of my list. I might just finally get out of this depressed state after all.
Sorry ... duh?