Tuesday, December 16, 2003

I Will Survive

Well ... ah ... uhm ... hmmm ...

'been doin' good with actually ... Things To Do ... yeah, a lot of them in the list are underway 'cept that mother nature is kinda playing tricks and God really has a wicked sense of humour. ' don't really know and I suppose, best bet is to just leave everything up to Him as he seems to have plans and I'm not really getting the big picture. Signs, signs, signs ... doors are closing one after the other.

Couple friends I've known are breaking up. My world is shaken and it'll be awhile before everything settles back ... It's actually still rocking, no direction actually ... it's not even a side to side thing like in a pendulum of some sort ... no rhythm at all. I'm holding on tight but my insides are just as shaken.

Survival.

I have been called a survivor and yes, I have survived this long. And I am not young anymore. My significant other says when your doctor starts telling you to eat fish, exercise and stop smoking ... that means you have joined the club. You're old.

So how do we go about this? One day at a time, she says ... My mother says, go to church.