It's been awhile

I had a stroke in 2005.
It's been awhile back.
But I'm still as heavily medicated.
I turned 50 this December.

I also was blessed with an angel in 2005.
Time has passed by so quickly.
The baby is no longer a baby.
I can't catch up with her.

The stroke forced me to retire completely.
Although it was a couple of mild strokes, I can not function normally.
Transient Ischemic Attacks, TIA's that caused scars and blockage in my hypothalumus.
Looking normal but my senses are impaired.

I enjoy Ckas.
She made life simpler.
My mom and I are in a more peaceful and content relationship.
Remy and I are more bonded together by Ckas.

Tara's still alive.
Some of the dogs have gone to the rainbow bridge.
I still miss Cymbals a lot.
Ckas would have loved to have her around.

I have not gone diving for a long time.
Worrying about what's going on above the water makes being under the water not worth it.
The weekends dive budget has gone up considering there are additional non-divers in the group.
The money I either indulge on Ckas or myself.

I almost died this year however much I wasn't aware of the gravity of the situation.
I almost lost my right arm too.
I had an accident with a 10 gallon tank.
I'm into fishes now.

I have carpal tunnel and tarsal tunnel syndromes.
I can't be on computers much nor editing videos.
I have to lose weight but I keep eating and eating ...
I exercise by tending to the fishes and the upkeep of the tanks.

I'm still managing.
Two years ago, I got into oil painting.
Stress management.
Two years ago, I was also on the roll fixing our abode upstairs.
Obsessive Compulsive Behavior management.
Right now, fish tanks.
Stress mangement, obsessive compulsive behavior and attention deficit hyperactive disorder management.
Eccentric and recluse state management too.
Peace from the bitches in my life ... who just constantly either babble, chat, screeche, yell, scream, nag and bitch about everyhing and anything.

So there!
Lifestyle change.
A complete turnaround.
Simple, contented and at peace.

Even with no income ;)

Ondoy Killed'em

Ondoy killed a lot! There was some sort of a news black out. According to the reports, there were only about 300 that perished. It's more than that. For one, everyone I talk to had somebody died in their network. My lawyer's associate's 2 sisters died. My daughter's former classmate's grandmother died. The owner of Red Bull and his bodyguards died. Somebody's maid drowned in the basement at Talayan, that was never in the news. My driver's neighbors, not just one or two perished, they either got burned or grounded with the flood waters. The whole squatters area burned down during the flood. Bodies were lined up at the Nissan Car Show Room along Quezon Blvd. day after.

There's some kind of conspiracy, I think.

It never flooded like that before in our house. It's like they let lose all the dams all at the same time and they're not admitting the miscalculations that caused the disaster. Blame it on Ondoy.

One thing Ondoy taught me is that all the material things we accumulate, they're just material and they become immaterial in times of crisis and disasters. The less you have, the better. The less you have, the less you lose. It's easier to start all over again. And if you really learn something from it, it's better to have less and that's what makes it easier. It also make life easier.

Just enough to get by. That is what I learned. When is enough, enough. Make life simple. Simple enough that it's easy to get through it and weather the storms.

I'm Back!

I've been trying to get in here.
I was trapped in another world.
Or should I say in several different worlds.
Sounds schizo ... doesn't it?
Well, I'm a little bit of this and a little bit of that.
I'm not crazy but I'm just a little unwell.
That song ...
I can relate to that song very well.
Heavily medicated.
Uppers during the day, downers during the night.
Certified and legally addicted.
No hope for rehab.
LOL.
I suffered a mild stroke.
And I'm still alive.
Still here.
Content.
Happy.
At peace.
Complete.
And full of love.
Finally!
I'm back!!!